One of the saddest things I have ever experienced is being a "hit and run." One of the saddest things I've ever seen is watching friends be "hit and run." There are way too many people who pretend to catch feelings for someone, pretend to love and care for them simply so they can gain the trust of that person. The manipulator takes advantage of the love that their significant other has for them and they use them. And after they've had sex, they leave. They leave their boyfriend/girlfriend because all they wanted was their body. They run, leaving the victim wondering what they did wrong. 

It is disgusting to me that this is so common. I feel that this type of situation is almost as scarring as direct sexual abuse. It is heartbreaking to know that someone you thought cared about you, used you. They LIED about loving you so they could feel physical pleasure for a second. 

What hurts even more is giving the abuser another chance because you are too blindly in love to catch onto their game. So you give them another chance and they use you again. Maybe this one was my fault. And maybe I am too young and too naive to be part of any relationship. I don't know. 

But I do know how much pain I felt when I watched him leave, with a part of me I should have never given away. And I know how hurt I was when he said "I'm sorry. You're right." Meaning I was right when I yelled at him for never loving me in the first place, when I confronted him about how he only got with me for my body. I will never forget how much pain I felt when I found out this truth. And I will never forget how much I hated myself for being so stupid. 

I know that this happens everyday, but I was just so young when it happened to me that I didn't know how to handle it. I still don't sometimes.